Everyone is producing better images than you........
Hello there, its been a while since I last posted due in part to work, laziness and a holiday! I returned this week from a 8day trip to the wonderful city of Lisbon, if you've never been I would suggest you go, its fantastic and sort of like San Francisco, but cheaper! That though is not really why I am writing or for that rather tenuous click bait style title.
Before my holiday I managed to complete a third image of the surfers in San Diego (see below), and it conjured up an idea, a continuation of an idea I guess. Lisbon has a number of beaches nearby(ish) and some of those are surfing hotspots, I wanted to continue this project on that route. So, I bought a needed longer lens for my Hasselblad a couple of boxes of film and the confidence that I now know how to do and replicate these images.
To get to the coast from Lisbon you have to take a train (if you do not have a car-which we did not) its 40mins and only 5Euros return. There are several 'hotspots' on this train line, and none of them had any surfing going on. So we walked, and walked, and googled, and walked. Nothing. The 'best' beach, which happens to hold championships on was too far to walk, too difficult to get to without a car and so we abandoned it. On the way back I spotted little dots on the horizon and we fled back the way we came and low and behold, by a jetty a nice break with 4 decent surfers on. I loaded up, and shot away......7 shots in is when is when I noticed the film was not winding on. Ripped that out, stuck a new one in and of course the surf died off. One surfer left, the others hung around for a bit and then they all left. 4 shots. Not great.
I needed to get to the other beach but with only a couple of days left, I planned to get up early catch a train back on the Saturday and hike or rent a moped if necessary to the beach. As it turns out there were some taxis hanging around so 10Euro later I found myself having coffee over looking a stunning beach with a world class reputation..... 2 hours and a bunch of surf schools later I had to leave with virtually nothing in the can. All I got was a couple of shots of people walking with their boards and a couple of bodyboarders paddling out-Frustrating. Still, it could be enough, for at least one new shot.......... could be. I have since developed those 2 rolls of film, played around with the images, and there's nothing. Individually the photos are fairly decent, but I cannot for the life of me get them to work like the San Diego ones. I am so annoyed, which brings me to the title of this blog.
We have discussed before that it is so easy to fall into the trap that everyone else is producing world class images, better images, more consistently and frequently. We see photos every day being shared, all over social media, we see the "look i've been awarded this", "I've been selected by this gallery" blah blah type posts every day too... It is easy to feel bummed out about your work, my work. In fact I felt it after this trip. I feel it today as I write this. It has hacked me off that I have nothing new to show, I started to feel that the San Diego shots were just a fluke. Heck, this week Twitter has had an influx of architectural photos on it and I've been beating myself up about this aspect too (the job side).
Fellow Twitterer Jon Wilkening recently started a podcast about creatives and his latest one with Mike Sakesegawa brings up this topic of the visible creative pressure we all go through and its well worth a listen (see below). We must remember (I must remember) that more often than not all we see on Social Media is the success, we ourselves see and live with our 'failures' so it hurts more, becomes easy to beat ourselves up about, but those people sharing all those wonderful photos and art work, they have the downs too, its just more often than not they don't share them.
There's no simple answer to this apart from believing you are on the right track, keep keeping on, try to understand every single person who has ever tried to create anything goes through this. No, everyone is NOT producing better images than you. Me? I'm still going to sulk the heck out of last week, beat myself up, be annoyed by it, threaten to burn, crumple and destroy those negatives.....the only real way that feeling is going to change is by writing about it, sharing my fails and continuing with the project and nailing one somewhere down the line, hopefully.
** in a random turn of events **
So shortly after this was posted on Twiter Sandeep aka @Givemeabiscuit came up with the idea of addressing the balance and sharing our not so great images... we are calling it #mediocreMonday. So come on come all, this Monday we shall all post a really boring, dull, rubbish photo that we've taken..... its a bit of fun, it helps quash all the anxiety and puts us all on a level playing field, pro or amateur! #MediocreMonday, lets make it a thing :)